Memoirs of Facebook - a film interviewed by a magazine in 2019.

When people here i was Living in Taiwan for half a year and abroad for half a year, everyone was envious. But at that time (2006), the doctor told me that I had less than half a year to live. He told me to do whatever I wanted to do. So I flew to 21 countries despite my illness. I wanted to see the world, because before I got sick, I was still making money to support my family...

I remember when I was sick, the doctor asked me the most: "Where is your family members? Why are you alone?" When I took steroids  and my knees swelled up. I cried in the stairwell. Thinking about it now, I still feel scared and sorry for myself, if I can, i want to give her a hug.

Because the doctor said that there is no medicine to cure my disease (as of 2025, there is still no medicine to cure this disease)

But I was lucky. My doctor told me that "sometimes the disease is psychological." He suggested that I try psychological counseling to untie the knot in my heart (maybe he found that I was the only one who came back, and  Follow-up for more than half a year).

And I am lucky because I met an opportunity, and I seized it to give myself a new life.

My counselor at the time asked me a question, "What is your dream?" I answered, "To become a jewelry designer." He replied, "If I said I could make you a jewelry designer, would you believe me?"

So, he started asking me to draw, and then rejected my drawings, asking me to draw the design over and over again for more than 20 times. Then I woke up from years of learning to draw. I picked up the brush again and started drawing the design. I started my journey towards becoming a jewelry designer.

"Language cues" can be positive or negative. I am lucky to have a second chance at life and be able to become what I want to be.

That’s how I went from Taipei to Singapore. Although I have been in Singapore for almost ten years, I have always been determined to build my dream and started from scratch. This is also what I admire about myself. I was on the verge of death and I have survived illness and experienced the low point of life.

But, I am very grateful to my chief counselor who mentored me at the time. He gave me a dream that I would not give up even when I encountered difficulties.

In 2020y-2021y, Everyone need to get vaccinated for COVID-19. The disease that I had recovered from at the end of 2016 was suddenly awakened, and with it came the fear of going to the hospital alone, which plunged me into darkness again.

At that time, I was alone in Singapore. I went to see my family doctor. I actually cried several times at home. Then I kept sending messages to the chief consultant in Taiwan because my eyes and body kept bleeding. It was as if I saw myself again, bleeding profusely when the nails lightly slid across my skin.

The fear is indescribable. Only those who have experienced it can understand it.

This blood disease (Acute thrombocytopenia) still has many patients around the world, and there is a group for it: Hemophilia patients).

Fortunately, in 2023y, when I went to hospital in Singapore for a follow-up, My doctor said my platelets were normal. And I recovered my health.

This period reminded me to never give up easily. The chief counselor also reminded me "Don't let your body bear your inner atmosphere".

The inner atmosphere can be "sad/angry", so starting in 2021, I no longer suppress my emotions and I am honest with my true feelings.

Many people may dislike my honest and sincere expression of my feelings, but physical health and spiritual freedom are the promises I must make to my second life and must follow and obey.

If possible, I hope everyone will not be like me and "learn to love yourself only after dying once". If possible, be kind to yourself and the people around you.